Bad Behavior aside....

Never have I ever felt everything and happy then I do when I am with him! At first I thought it was because the sex was so amazing. It was just a random Thursday night and I met EB through a mutual friend and after a lot of alcohol the idea of getting laid seemed appealing. However this what not your regular jaunt what happened that night made sure that I would never ever be able to feel intimacy in a vanilla fashion ever again! Once I had made my mind to fuck him I knew that it would probably be ordinary and I would leave feeling dissatisfied with my choice in the morning. I would do the walk of shame at 7am with my head held low and question my drinking decisions, this was not my first one night stand, but not something that I was accustomed too. But this day this time I walked away feeling elated, excited, and erratic!I had never been spanked or whipped so hard during sex. My ass was sore in the morning and I was confident that there would be a bruise.During our first sexual encounter we had sex three times I passed out during the third time after I orgasmed and for the first I was not sure if he had reached climax, but I was so content that I didn't even inquire or try to please him any further. His sexual execution is careful and  meticulous. Every move calculated and sure. I admire that about him! While I can't recall his kisses as being amazing I remember the thrusting movement of his ass being hard and powerful and my hands being tied up and I didn't give a shit if he ever let me go. I ache when he is away, when the bruises fade I miss him, and when the soreness is gone I feel nothing! The physical pain he inflicts infiltrates my psyche, the emotional and mental damage he causes me lets me know that he is hurting just as much as I am! He says that I piss him off and then placate him perhaps because I need to ensure that my punishment will be brutally painful. The idea of submitting to any man has never crossed my mind. Before the idea of submitting to any man was ridiculous. And while I go drone on about how sexually satisfied I am with him, what I know of him after the sex is a man that is gentle, kind, and thoughtful. This is not to say that he does not know what he wants  I remember waking up and wanting only to please him!

How not to feel grey after the goose!

Being a woman, that enjoys going out and being social I have learned that woman may encounter many potential dangers and can fall victim to social stigma when she incorporates drinking in her social activities, BUT fear not as there are ways to not feel grey after the goose!

1. Contrary to popular belief you cannot blame it on the liquor, you can however blame it on poor decision making. Get over it and move on! The line to feeling better goes, "I'm an adult I can do what I want!"

2. Guess what the people you think are passing judgement on you, probably are. But here is why you really should not care because they were right there next to you doing the same damn thing. Oh okay maybe it was not as "extreme", but it is testament to who they are especially if they do not try to help correct the situation. In other words the situation was not corrected because the other person was incapacitated as well, so they really cannot judge you!

3. The sun will go on rising and setting regardless of your drunken stupidity. If you have not hurt anyone physically and did not do anything deemed hurtful to anyone else, then you are fine. Even if you're drunk you know if you hurt someone! Well unless you were unconscious! Note: There is a difference as well in drunken playfulness being comfortable in your social surroundings is important because these people can usually differentiate or respect you enough to know that you are just playing and not take it any further. But as aforementioned the sun will go on and so should you!

4. If a person is single then they are fair game! Just make sure you are protected! In no way I am saying be promiscuous that's disgusting! A one night stand, it happens just don't let it happen more than once or at least turn that one night stand into a friend and steady sex supply! What I am saying is if he's single and you're single and you feel comfortable and SAFE with this person enough to get physical then go for it! Remember not to kiss and tell. Keep those affairs private. If people say anything without your admission it is all speculation and heresay.

When going out and incorporating drinking into your social activities try to mind your manners get an adult buzz going getting shit faced sucks, so does poor decision making. In addition there is a large disconnect from who you are as person when you are drunk the saying "in vino veritas" I find to be both true and false because when you are intoxicated you run solely on the ID as alcohol has rendered the EGO inoperable, therefore when drunk we act purely on the pleasure principle!

Be safe drink responsibly!

My gynecologist is both the judge and the jury!

I haven't blogged in forever! So here goes... Well I've been sick the last year and half which has really sucked and I recently had a biopsy done on my cervix which was a horrible experience because it came with a lot of embarrassing questions like: When was the last time you had intercourse? Anal? How about vaginal penetration? How many partners do you have? Are you sure it was just anal? How often do you have anal sex? What's up with all the questions about my anus last time I checked my cervix was housed in my vagina! I've had the same gynecologist for the last seven years and she still looks at me like I am the biggest slut on the planet. Her whole demeanor towards is me is inimical! I know its because I ENJOY sex more often than she does. Throughout the examination I could see her becoming increasingly annoyed when I told her I was in pain and that I felt awkward. Her face said, "You had anal sex and sex with a dildo two days ago..PLEASE!" her mouth said "Does this really cause you discomfort?" Yes bitch it does! I have never been so uncomfortable with a physician she is cold and judgmental. At that moment I wanted to get up and leave but you can't walk on out someone who has you spread eagle with an ice cold speculum in your happy hole and a pair of long looking thin scissors to cut and scrape the inside of your cervix with. As soon as she was done she looks at me knowing full well my life at this point in time revolves around my workouts and tells me that I can't workout or have sex for the next two weeks! She looks delighted to deliver this news to me. And all I was thinking "Why she didn't explain this before the procedure?" At any rate I'm glad it's over and I'm a week away from workouts and sex.